By Tracy Weber
I never wanted to have children of my own. Scratch
that. I had a passing urge in my
twenties. I got a cat and it went away. I do, however, enjoy helping other
mothers and mothers-to-be. Still, it’s hard to authentically advocate how much
prenatal yoga can help with childbirth and recovery when you’ve never been
pregnant, much less given birth.
So I did the only think I could think of to learn about the
childbirth experience: I became a doula.
At least on paper.
I’ve taken doula training twice. I never thought I’d actually end up in a
delivery suite, but I figured the more I knew about childbirth, the more I
could be in help my students plan for it. I was immediately struck in the
training by how strong people’s opinions were about the “right” way to give
birth. The topic seemed to be as contentious
as recent presidential elections. But I digress….
I graduated and integrated my learnings into my prenatal yoga
classes. A student even asked me to attend
her birth, but she needed an emergency c-section, and I wasn’t allowed in the
surgical suite. Years went by. I forgot
everything I ever learned about being a doula, except as it related to my yoga
classes.
Then my best friend got pregnant and told me that she
thought she should have a doula at her first birth. I agreed. Hiring an
experienced doula was a fabulous idea.
“You don’t get it,” she said. “It has to be you.”
Gulp.
I tried to convince her that I was utterly incompetent. I
assured her that that she could hire thousands of doulas who would be better
than me. She refused to consider anyone else.
So back to doula school I went.
Attending that birth will always be one of the greatest highlights
of my life. My friend’s labor was a
difficult one, over twenty hours long. I was, as I’d feared, pretty much
incompetent. But my friend didn’t seem
to mind. And I’ll never forget her son’s
hand reaching toward me as he entered the world.
So how did I connect that experience with murder? I didn’t. At least not directly. But I was
moved by the stories I’d heard in training, perplexed by the controversies, and
transformed by my own experience bumbling through such an important life
event. And of course my protagonist,
Kate, would do anything for her best friend, Rene. So when Rene became pregnant with twins in A Killer Retreat, I knew I’d eventually write about her birth.
The result is A Fatal Twist.
I hope you read and enjoy it.
Tracy Weber
All four books in the Downward Dog Mystery Series are available at booksellers everywhere!
Tracy Weber
All four books in the Downward Dog Mystery Series are available at booksellers everywhere!