If all goes well, I’ll set off today to drive from Florida to North
Carolina to visit my sister. In this season of summer
vacations, it’s the perfect time to go. Fort
Lauderdale is sweltering. My sister tells me evening
temperatures in the mountains drop to the 60s. Pack the jacket! Where I’m
from, we call that winter.
I’m leaving with a clear conscience, because I just finished
the manuscript for my fifth mystery, MAMA GETS TRASHED. I hope my brain uses
the long drive to recharge. There’s nothing like staring at a highway center
line for twelve hours to jolt the creative juices. I always have a pen and notepad
in my truck’s console, just in case. I might just come up with an idea
for the next great American novel at the five-hundred-and-seventh monotonous mile.
Because I spend most of my life in a fog of nostalgia, packing
for this trip reminded me of another journey I took, a few years ago. My mother
was 90. She wanted to go back home to Illinois
one last time. Before we left Florida,
I heard her on the phone with the childhood friend she’d arranged to visit. The
friend asked if she was nervous about traveling at her age.
“I’m not worried at all,’’ my mom said. “My daughter takes
care of everything.’’
Just like my mother did for us.
I was eight the summer my father died. Mom loaded my little brother
and me into our family's battered Ford Fairlane. We took a long, meandering road trip between
our Florida home and Chicago, where she was born. Driving,
grieving, she’d hold her tears until after dark, when she thought we were asleep
in the bed she made on the back seat. Lying there, I’d watch the reflections
from oncoming headlights. I was terrified those cars would smash into ours, and
my mother would die just like my father did. With each rectangle of light
that passed over her face, fading harmlessly into the darkness, I breathed more easily.
My father was gone, but I felt a little safer after that
summer with my mother behind the wheel.
One of Mon's favorite sayings was always, “One good turn deserves
another.’’ So, on her last trip home, I took the driver’s seat. I packed her clothes, and lifted the suitcases. I studied the maps and found the hotels. I was happy to be able to “take
care of everything’’ for her on that trip. But most of all, I was grateful that
those many summers later, she felt safe with me behind the wheel.
How about you? Does your family take road trips? Do creative
ideas pop into your head on long drives? Do you feel happy -- or sad – behind
the wheel?
5 comments:
I've had to make some long road trips alone this summer, from Arizona to Colorado a couple of times as we moved. I checked out Agatha Christie books on CD from the library and the time flew by. I probably should have been thinking creatively for my own books, but listening to a master is studying, right?
Absolutely, Shannon. We can always learn from Dame C. Fun!
What a lovely post! You painted a beautiful portrait of your mom in just a few paragraphs. And congratulations on finishing the manuscript.
What a wonderful post, Deb, and what a wonderful daughter you are! I loved family road trips when I was a kid, and I still do, though now that our kids are grown and on their own, most of my travel is just with my husband.
Thanks to Kathleen and Beth for the nice comments. My mom's mind is failing now, but she was a wonderful role model.
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